Talk the Talk 话话世界

Recently, I didn't blog much. I was doing a reformation of my life.

As some of you may know, like I posted few days ago, I actually don't like myself.

So to made myself like myself, I need to undergo some changes.

And surely these changes never come easily. I need to think what to do and how to do it.

So this few days, I try to go for it.

A few questions I asked myself.

Do I feel lonely?
Do I need anybody?
And do I have anyobody?

And yesterday night I got myself an answer, but the answer is not important...

The solution is more important...

Like I said, I don't like myself getting sacrifice... So now I don't sacrifice...

I don't need to be an angel, afterall the world has angels and devils, so I just have to be myself...

Don't ask me to change the world... Because I will never able to do it...

So am I evil now?

Nope. I just being myself. It means I don't care things that I not involve and I only care things that relate to me.

I will no longer help people unless they are those that helped me and seem to be a part of my life.

In short, I will only care about my life ad it's parts.

I used to think why everyone has their own gang, I now get it. They just having their own life, I'm the one who slow and never get it.

Now I got it.

What am I going to do is just get some members into my gang and then live with that gang?

The most important part is... next time when I stretch my hand out, someone's going to grab and hold it...

As some people said I need to be more selfish, and now I'm learning to be selfish...

It's will definitely help in my life.

So now, I have a new life and it's about to see who is a part of my life and who is not.

The rules are simple... those I care and those care I will be it... The others? Just leave it...

I sure I love my life and I going make sure there will be no harm on any part of my life...

I would like to say I like to get friends at my back just like I like to back them up. But one thing I never forget,those who say are my friends may not be my friends. The heart can feel, the eyes can see... Words are nothing but just illusion.

I need friends... And now, I going to hunt for the real one.