Talk the Talk 话话世界

There are classmates in my current class having single parent or grow from a "incomplete" family. They are the people that looks tougher and stronger than the others. As for me, someone that grow under the watching of parents, always try to be as strong and tough as they do.

But sometimes the world is really a bit unfair...

Bad things always strike the people who try to be tough... Yet the preparation or the defense of our heart to resist the intrudes from these black things are not enough... I always got beaten by them...

My aunty pass away and my best friend left me... It's all within a year... And now, the first ever "cancer" among my father side or mother side family came to attack...

The world is really unfair... If people is fair 20 years ago, I should now preparing to succeed 2 piece of lands and 2 shops from my father side family and 1 rubber estate and 2 shops from my mother side family... I knew my grandfather got cheated by his own nieces while last week I found that my mother side great-grandfather's rubber estates and shops somehow got "takeover" by his brothers instead of his children and his wife, it's end up... They are homeless for sometimes and work as hard as cow for rest of their lives to sustain lives...

But world is really unfair... Those people who cheat enjoyed their life now... Have money to spend and live egoly and proudly and their sons and daughters are even worse... There's not the only thing that unfair... But those that are kind and worked hard have a total different situation ...

My mother-side grandfather...

He is someone that seldom talk to people even to his grandchild...

He is skinny and dark...

He cycled and walked the whole life, he had never drive or ride on a car,train,ship or airplane...

He helped people when he was able...

He never accept any returns and not even the money from his children...

But sadly...

He have 4 children... That 3 of them were once addicted in gamble...

He is a father who had been cursed and scolded by his sons for nearly 20 years in his live

He is a father who had pay his 3 children's debt with whatever he have

He is a father who had never enjoy retiring life or whatsoever...

He is a husband who have to take care his wife that got stroke for years...

He walked while he is barely walking...

He was the most hardworking and unfortunate man that I ever saw...

And after his eyes are nearly blind and now he has skin cancer...

Since I knew what's money, I knew that my mum gave a lot money back to her family everyyear... The sum maybe enough to buy a Bungarrow in KL but not even a single cent was used by my granddad... But now... he suffered... My mum heartbroke...while I heartache...

There were people that happened to tell my parents that my fate and destiny is determined to be success... And if this is true, I hope I can exchange it... I don't mind being someone that no name and worked as cow for life but just barely to sustain live... As long as now, people around me no longer suffer from any thing...

I'm worried that one day I believed this world is unfair... I'm worried that one day I will laugh and kill... I will be the top of the world by stepping on bodies and not even feel bad about it... There are people stated that devils came from the dark side... I'm worry that what I saw and what I experienced is more than enough to push me into the dark side...

For someone who worked hard and not enjoying his life, no fame, no money, sacrificing for so many people... yet he is suffering...

I hope the god will bless him to pass through this obstacle.

I swear that I will be someone good and never be selfish...

Please god...

I don't beg for much but just let the people around me free from diseases and suffers... If you want anyone, take those that did bad things...