Talk the Talk 话话世界

             I think we should have no more contact. I really not that 伟大 sacrifice myself to complete others' dream. She want to go beside him, I just ask her follow her mind, concentrate on how to like him, how to be his girlfriend. I wouldn't come out words like :" I'll be waiting for you..." " Come back if you feel hurt..."

I really can't. I'm someone bad and selfish, you want to leave me just go. I wouldn't force you to stay, yet I wouldn't say I'll waiting for you to come back. Both of us are same age, so I think both of us can think before we make decisions. You made it, you had to prepared for everything, this time I decided not to support your decision. I had more important thing to hold on- my heart, my mood, my mind, my emotion, my face expression and more....

           I don't want to feel this empty anymore, don't want the feel tears rolling in my eyes, don't want to listen anymore sad songs, don't want.... and don't want!!! I never been such a place, it's so cold... And dark... I closed air-con, turn on lights... Yet I feel that... 1st time I never look at mirror when bathing... Hair is wet... I believe my face is wet because I'm taking bath not because I cry... I don't dare to stare myself in eyes... I can't give an answer to myself "Am I that bad?!" How can I...How can I!!!

             Tomorrow has school. Have to faked smiles so that people never come and ask for the reason for being emo... I just need some time... Let me... Let me... Can I? Let me... forget her... and let... let... her... her... go...

96524926... 521... really... really...

but now I have to forget everything...... Can I just don't wanna... I can't... I knew that I have to...

Let her go... This what my brain tell my heart...

I didn't heard any response from heart...

Update in 2011: 96 524 926, are actually numbers where I typed in my message and her name will appeared. DICTIONARY. 521, 我爱你。Yes， I‘ve can feel that how young and innocent am I last time to say that 521。