Talk the Talk 话话世界

Some of the classmate may wonder why I didn't blog about the class party...

Cause I don't know any of thing that I should blog about it... I do have some thoughts came out during and after the party but whether to put it here, I've been kind of struggled. Struggle is not because the things are bad, struggle is because is it necessary to share with the other?

Anyway, I decided to write it out.

This is the second party (at least the second one that I participated as L6Bian). Compare to the first one, there's huge differences and some similarities.

Talk about the similarities first. I still remain so call "alone" but honestly I had been normal to be a witness or a viewer rather than a participant in a party. And I still the one who wash the floor. And we still using Tim's house.

The differences? First one is steamboat; second one is a BBQ. First one was prepared straight after school; Second's preparation was just involve some people in the morning. During the first party, it was made so to create opportunities for people and our classmates to know each other better and to have a closer relationship. While when the second one happened, some already be super duper close. The first one has more people present while the second one has less people, and it's also a farewell party.

As someone who see things as an outsider, did we get closer compared to the first one? I say it's a definitely YES.

You may talk about the conflicts, you may take about the absentees... but only close people will have conflict and absentees only present among a group close friend. Strangers wouldn't bother to argue among each other and they don't even care whether they present or not.

Therefore, I can say that we are closer.

But does closer mean more understanding? I can't give you an answer...

People may say I'm not the organiser so I don't appreciate the efforts... but somehow throughout the party I started to see RANDOMNESS as a charateristic of these organisers... and honestly I started to feel tired because of the RANDOMNESS.

Maybe since young, I do everything with a plan and I don't like things get mess up. Everyone can tolerate but for me, a party meant to be accurate in term of timing, events and so on.

Rushing to prepare the food, getting people to come, last minute gifts and so on... it may make the party be more interesting but it's also more tiring.

Think out of the box. I do appreciate these guys... they taught me to be RANDOM. It may sound sarcastic but I sincerely thank them.

Honestly, I been normal with plans and doing things following a blueprint and when I mix with these guys... It's a totally different situation. They don't rely on planning, they do things on the spot. They showed me that not neccessary everything follow plan, there might be some other factor that affect the outcome. They taught me that things can be simple, something that I never realize.

Not to say which side is selfish, which side is more on themself because thinking for others may also be a selfish act; while considering themself first may be the best for all.

This is the thing that I learnt from this totally different lifestyle friend...Being RANDOM.

My parents don't like it, my future wouldn't allow it, successful never contain it... yet it's a factor of life that is unavoidable. There are times we will be random and through these guys, I'm learning how to handle these sudden changes.

That's all in my mind during and after the PARTY.

If you ask me will I be joining next time? I will say that I will consider it...