Talk the Talk 话话世界

I don't know how people evaluate me; and I don't know whether I should care for how people look at me.

This few days, there is misunderstanding between me and other.

It may seem like I'm the one that mean to others.

It all started with a plan that did not involve me...

Nope. It's all started with the cancellation of the trip, so an outing plan is there to sub in. I am not involve in it.

Simple enough because it just involve two group people, which is not my group people. So I know it well that I shouldn't involve.

So it's the first day of my cancelled trip, my group members asked me to school for the bug specimens. I definitely has no mood for it, my trip is cancel,where I yet to suit myself in a mood and into questions from people, moreover there is no bug cause the trip was meant for the bug catching.

So I try my group members I not going on Tuesday for the specimen and then they come to me and ask me go for the outing plan mentioned on Wednesday.

First of all, I already know I shouldn't involve in that since I wasn't a part of it, so been straight forward telling my group members "I'm not going."

As usual, a WHY been asked and I gave an explanation where I think is true that "I don't think I was involve in this. No one has ask me. This should be their groups' outing."

My group members doubt that and responded that they were invited, so I just tell them "Maybe you are, but not me. So I'm not going."

It just some pure instinct response, people may take it as a response of angry... But it got nothing to do with angry, cause I knew at the 1st place where this outing plan exist, and it's exist and got nothing to do with me.

Then i happened to chat with S class friends,ie KW and Adrian where it's actually about an outing for some shopping or karaoke, then happened to talk about bugs, so it become a bug catching outing. It should be on Thurs, then I was told to call some B class people. So I came to Yeong Shing.

Then everything link me with my friend's outing plan again because Yeong Shing was asked to join the trip. It's happened to be more complicated when Yeong Shing said he will just choose one and go, he will prefer the nearer one than the far one. Plus, he found out friday has no lab so thursday should be push forward to wednesday where adrian cannot make it and I called the twinnie's group. It's too sensitive especially when it look like I pulling a member from my friend's outing plan because I was not invite to it. I just don't want any issue so I reminded my friend try not to say we got an alternative bug catching plan...

During my planning with Yeong Shing, we did talk about my friend's planning. Cause I really don't know what's going on there and I know I not involve... but regard who is going, who is not... where they going... I all also don't know. So I just decide that my plan just don't involve any other 6Bians cause I wouldn't know whether I pulling any out again.

Until yeong shing said he know who going,who not; then I ask Jowy... She said she got her plan that day...So I said never mind then. then this become another issue.

It's really not my style to keep asking someone...which part of his or her day will be free or not free...

And it's not my style to ask about something that I was not involve because I hate busybody...

But it's my style to tell people what I know or I don't know when people ask me...

So now imagine this...

Friend 1: Chun Hui, do you know that Super Junior is coming here for their concert?
Chun Hui: I don't know...
Friend 1: We are going to watch the concert... Are you?
Chun Hui: I don't think I involve in this...
Friend 1:Why you are not going?
Chun Hui: I actually don't know anything about Super Junior de lo.
Friend 1:Then why you don't want to know more about Super Junior?
Chun Hui: Because I not involve then I don't ask.
Friend 1: Oh, you bu shuang Super Junior wan...

See... this is an illustration of the situation... I got my character and style... When people don't understand, they try to analyse and interpret my words and actions by their own mind, misunderstand occur by then.

I don't know whether I should care how people look at me; If I have to, then the world has too many people for me to care for; If I don't have to, then too many conflicts will happen around me.

The best choice is I care for those who I think I should care, so I did a clarification on my blog. Those I care and those who care will read this and they will know.

There's no need to apologize whenever you got anything that not involve me because I will never angry or whatever about it.

Because it's my principle of life where

I will know whenever I have to know;and if I don't have to know,by anyway I know, it's also pointless for me to know.

In life, it's not about trying to get everything, but trying to get everything that WE DESERVED it.

So if you and I has any misunderstand, I wouldn't say sorry, and you shouldn't too, it just some "yet to be understand" occured... and I hope this will clear things up.

I don't like mystery... because only deaths involve mystery...